His Girthiness II (I’m Still Fat!)
I “Failed”! But I learned (sounds cliche-isch doesn’t it!)……and I did make a tad bit of progress so all is not lost. I’ve licked my wounds (not tasty to my liking) and am ready to move forward.
First, here’s what I didn’t do. Being ‘brutally’ honest with myself and you….. I didn’t do what I said I was gonna do! None of it….but I did think about it, just didn’t do. Plus I have this life ruling ‘addiction’ that I quite enjoy……’Cheese Fries and Beer’! Man!!! I could have that combo meal for Breakfast, lunch, and diner and as a snack in-between and never get tired of ’em. (today, I’m going into my 3rd day without and the withdrawal is excruciating!! The constant thought of my fav has me drooling and having inappropriate thoughts…….yeah, I know weird huh?)
Second First……just reading and rereading how to and the success stories don’t transcend the paper they are written on or computer screen. No amount of positive thinking helps….see my results.
Thirdly, just thinking that tomorrow will bring success is wickedly stupid. Everyone knows Tomorrow Never Comes!!
Sooooooo, where does that leave me. Well, here’s the stats from where I started on April 1st.: Weight 211.6, Body Fat 31.2, Muscle Mass 26.3, BMI 31.2. And here’s where I was at the end of the month: Weight 209.8, Body Fat 30.8, Muscle Mass 26.5, and BMI 31.1. So, I’m roughly 2 pounds lighter. Harsh reality…..there’s a lot of ‘Fat’ to get rid of!!!
I don’t believe I’m predisposed to being overweight…..(by the way I’m not sensitive to words like ‘overweight’, or ‘fat’…….but ‘blubber belly’, ‘fatso’, ‘fat boy’ yeah…..you could make me cry but for the sake of calling it as it is, I will use the terms ‘overweight’, ‘fat’, and yes ‘obese’.) because I wasn’t before….before I got fat.
I’ll start a new page showing my labored progress within the next day recording my previous days for the month.
I can tell you that while I have been stricter on myself over the past 3 days, there’s not much difference to brag about…..and I’ve done some serious walking!! Started lifting weights. I even have this small peddling apparatus under my desk!!! I’m serious folks. This will make me a healthier individual, lower my blood pressure, lessen my risk of diabetes and heart disease, make me easier on everyone’s eyes too!!!
Basically, this hasn’t changed……sadly.
But, I feel more motivated than ever. Exposing a weakness, a desire to make a change that will be so beneficial for my health and your eyes is exciting and motivating!!!
Hang in there with me please……success comes after failure, it failure isn’t the goal.
Wait!!! I ain’t quite finished yet!! Or maybe I am, after all, I have this peddling apparatus under my desk. I have my activity tracker(Misfit Flash, as advertised here) on my wrist and my iPhone with it’s step tracker in my pocket!!!! This could be a special moment……a bit choked up right now.
Okay….enough. Gotta get busy, a long way to go…stay tuned my tracking page will be up by tomorrow.
Peace, Love, and Beaches,