I’m Having An Identity Crisis……

I’m Having An Identity Crisis……




I was less than 24 hours shy of having signed the papers for the sale of my house and I realized that I so identified with that house!!  All the hard work.  All the blood and sweat…..for real, I always had some sort of accident, I’ve broken my second toe on my right foot at least 3 times……reset it myself and went back at the project…..sweat, oh yeah!!!  Many times the temp would soar to over 100 degrees in the shade.  But the pool was only steps away, and a cold beer too.

So, I’m having an identity crisis…..




I didn’t expect it, I just didn’t.  It’s only a big deal in my mind.  I’m not apt to give myself much time with this though as I’ve too much to see, do and enjoy.  Right now writing this I’m in Key Largo, Florida!  Bogart and Bacall…….Casablanca!  The bar is right on a lovely setting on the bay a bit up the road from here.  Shortly I’ll make the trek down to Ernest Hemingway’s old stomping grounds…..Key West.  I’ll soak up some inspiration and a bit of adult beverages too.  Sunrises and sunsets.

I really love it down here…..but, it requires a really laid back attitude.  I was looking out at the Atlantic yesterday afternoon…..all the boats and it occurred to me that this was an adult playground.  And a wonderful one it is.

So, I’m having an identity crisis…..




I see me getting out of my car in my drive at my former home enjoying the sight of the travelers palms I planted in the front to shade the huge window from the heat of the western sun.  My yard, I dug it up and planted the sod myself!!  I watered, fertilized and cut…… I also sense the aggravation of the weeds that did regular battle with my will, to which I languish in defeat.  Yeah, I had to contend with the weeds in the cracks of the concrete drive!!  My lopsided mailbox which I never tended to for 13 years.  My bad.  I’m thinking, there’s more work for me to do there!!  Plus I accidentally dripped some fluid from an old fan I was throwing away and stained my drive!!  I needed to repaint it!!  GADS!!!

So, I’m having an identity crisis…..




I wasn’t ‘finished’ yet!!!!  There was more that I wanted to do!!!!  So, this identity crisis will have to come to an end.  I must forge a new, trusting, and lasting identity……a vagabond perhaps!  It does sound appealing just as a ‘nomad’!!!

I’m now under reconstruction……..leaving behind the identity crisis.  Out of the way old, life, on with the new!




Peace, Love, and Beaches,

John







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